Things My Dad Taught Me.
My dad taught me
Pokemon is awesome
Even if you like Barbie
There isn't always a need to be "girly"
My dad taught me
To appreciate the moon
Even when it's no longer sunny
For the world is dark without positivity
My dad taught me
How to speak up
Without being cocky
That mistakes are to be followed with a sorry
My dad taught me
That times are tough
And jobs don't come easy
So always keep an eye out for opportunity
My dad taught me
Failure is inevitable
Tons have faced it
So has he
We will make bad decisions
Some things happen uncontrollably
But what you make of life
Is the determinant of "happy"
My dad taught me
That being poor
Was not about money
It was about mentality
So do what you love
And let it set you free
My dad taught me
To love
When things are the toughest
To love
When life is absolutely shitty
To love, always,
Unconditionally.
Happy Father's Day Daddy.
(PS: No your name is not kawaii)
Saturday, June 18, 2016
Sunday, December 27, 2015
Cigarette Smoke
Cigarette Smoke
Picture credits: All-pix.com
It was simple what we were.
At the same time
it was
complicated.
A stick of cigarette
A white paper cylinder
Sitting
right
between
your lips
So simple.
At the same time
So complicated.
Each exhale you gave
Was an inhale I took
A puff of smoke
in the sky
For a second
It looked almost
magical
But only for a second did it last
Only for a second
Did we last
Because just like the smoke
You were fleeting
This was not the place for you
And just like smoke to me
I found it hard to breathe
Eyes tearing up
This was not something for me
Smoking.
Your only bad habit
You would say
Bad habits come easy
But go hard
Very hard.
Picture credits: All-pix.com
It was simple what we were.
At the same time
it was
complicated.
A stick of cigarette
A white paper cylinder
Sitting
right
between
your lips
So simple.
At the same time
So complicated.
Each exhale you gave
Was an inhale I took
A puff of smoke
in the sky
For a second
It looked almost
magical
But only for a second did it last
Only for a second
Did we last
Because just like the smoke
You were fleeting
This was not the place for you
And just like smoke to me
I found it hard to breathe
Eyes tearing up
This was not something for me
Smoking.
Your only bad habit
You would say
Bad habits come easy
But go hard
Very hard.
Friday, October 2, 2015
Isaac
Isaac
A three part poem series
But, Really.
It wasn't picture perfect
Truly not something I'd expect
But it was remarkable
Undeniably, the night was magical.
Truly not something I'd expect
But it was remarkable
Undeniably, the night was magical.
Lead.
The hint of bitter smoke lingers
Something I didn't want but now needed
The trail of tender fingers
It all started with a "just follow my lead".
Something I didn't want but now needed
The trail of tender fingers
It all started with a "just follow my lead".
Like Gum.
I'm worried to start with a "hey"
In fear you'd leave me
Just to throw me away
Like gum you wrapped tightly.
In fear you'd leave me
Just to throw me away
Like gum you wrapped tightly.
Sunday, March 15, 2015
Jake vs. The Witch
I
ran as fast as I could and behind me, I could hear the creatures, whimpering,
snarling and panting. As I scrambled up the slope to the house, I glanced over
my shoulder and saw The Witch towering over me. My feet froze. I gulped as
lighting flashed brightly sourcing light onto her warty and ugly face. Her eyes
shone bright red right at me, as she wrapped her cold bony hands around my
throat. My feet were no longer on the ground and I could feel the air slowly
draining from my lungs. Beneath me, the creatures were awaiting their dinner.
With
every remaining morsel of my soul, the words “Please stop… I’ll help you…”
escaped my throat. The Witch, her eyes still pinned to mine, threw her head
back and cackled loudly. She smirked at me and released her grip on my throat.
“AAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!”
I shut my eyes and screamed as I descended to my untimely death.
My eyes still shut, I waited and
waited for the pain to come, for the teeth to sink in, for my bones to be
crushed but there was nothing. I opened my eyes and the next thing I knew, I
was in my bed sweating and panting as if I had just completed a marathon.
BANG! The door opened swiftly. I
braced myself for the worst.
“Jake,
what’s the matter? Is everything all right?” questioned my mother anxiously.
Oh,
it was just Mom. I exhaled in relief. “Yeah, don’t worry about me. It was just
a nightmare.” I assured my mother. We said our goodnights and she went back to
bed. I was safe, this time. However, it was only a matter of time before The
Witch came back to get me. Now, I knew that I had to take matters into my own
hands.
During my walk to school, I passed
The Witch’s house. It was an old rotting house and all her windows were barred
and covered with black cloth. On the porch, her black humongous guard dogs
slept through the day. A chill ran down my spine and goosebumps formed on my
arms. The crystal clear image of my first encounter with The Witch clouded my
mind. It was exactly on the night of All Hallows’ Eve, a clique of girls from
my school were standing across the house giggling and pushing each other to
enter the house. Amongst the girls were Lydia, the girl of my dreams since
sixth grade and her big and burly boyfriend of two months - Brendan Philips.
“Don’t be a wimp Brad, just get in!”
teased Lydia as she motioned Brendan towards the rusted gate. At that moment, I
had been walking home with a small bag of goodies after a short trick-or-treat
session. I was dressed as Ash Ketchum – the main character from my favourite
game, the Pokemon series when Lydia and her friends spotted me.
“I bet Jake would enter Weird Old
Cathy’s place.” Lydia stated in a-matter-of-fact facade.
Moments later, ironically, I found
myself standing right in front of the corroded gate. Across the street, Lydia
blew a kiss at me. In my bravado spur of the moment, I jumped the fence and trampled
over a few dried up plants and scurried up the porch. The lucky stars were on
my side that night as the hounds were nowhere to be found. My veins were filled
with adrenaline and my heart was beating fast, sweat trickled down my brow as I
made a mad dash for the door. Inside the house, it was dark in what I could
make out as the hallway except for one dim source of light from the end of the
corridor. The place was covered in dust and cobwebs and a strange musk filled
the air.
I moved slowly and steadily but it
was as if every movement made was watched and every creak the floor made was
amplified. “Jake, you really are a gem. Look what you have gotten yourself
into!” I conversed mentally. Creak.
Creak. Creak. Went the floors. To my demise, my feet weren’t moving – I was
standing as still as a statue in the tiny room. My eyes travelled across the
place trying to find the source of the noise. Silence. Maybe it was just a
draft…
BAM! The door behind me slammed
shut. I turned around only to be struck on the head by something hard. After
that, everything went dark. Moments later, I regained consciousness and tasted
blood on my lips. Everything was blurry and all I could make out was the sound
of an old lady singing and the clink
and clank of metal against metal. I
brought my hand forward to wipe my lip only to find that they were tied behind
my back. When my vision restored, a tall elderly woman with long white frizzy
hair and dressed in black approached me.
“Hello
dearie, I’ve been waiting for you,” she said with a smile across her face
showcasing her rotting teeth. Subtly, I reached for my penknife I always keep
in my back pocket just in case of anything like this happened and began to saw
the rope behind my back.
“Listen
child, I want nothing more from you except your help.” She replied as her big
veiny eyes travelled across my face. When I didn’t respond, she continued
almost humming the words, “Bring me 5 drops of blood and a lock of hair from
your first love. You have 3 weeks to think about it. If you deny my offer, I
will hunt you down and behead you. Now, would you like some homemade broth?
It’s very delicious!” The Witch then headed towards her boiling pot of soup.
“I’m
sorry lady, I am afraid I’ll have to decline,” I said. My wrists were cut
loose, I stood up, charged towards the old lady and pushed her into the boiling
pot of liquid. Her head dipped into the burning hot mixture and it spilt all
over her. She shrieked in agony but I didn’t bother looking back as I ran for
my life. I collapsed to the ground gasping for breath when I had successfully
exited the place.
Suddenly,
my phone vibrated in my pocket causing me to leap up and squeal like a little
girl getting tickled – bringing me back to reality. On my phone was a text
message from an unknown number. I opened it immediately, curious to know what
the message contained - maybe it was from Lydia. Maybe my courageous act during
Halloween showed her that I’m more than meets the eye. I clicked the button.
The message read – “I’m waiting…”.
Confused,
I looked up from my phone only to find The Witch staring at me from her
windowsill. I took off sprinting like the Olympic gold medalist Usain Bolt,
back to my house and entered the garden shack. Swiftly, I pulled down the
secret latch connected to a small wooden compartment in the roof of the tiny shack.
I coughed as the dust flew into my nostrils and contaminated my lungs. Behind
the compartment, sat a thick and dusty leather bound journal. The engraved
leather spelt the words:
LIBRI
Lucis
h.l anne
The
journal belonged to my great grandmother, I had found it a few years back. Both
my parents agreed to be rid of this in fear it might bring adversity to the
family. They threw it into the flame of my fireplace and there the journal
burned to ashes. When I checked on the fireplace a couple of hours later to
clear the ash, there sat – as if untouched and unaltered, the journal. So, I
adopted the book secretly and hid it from my parents. It finally came time to
put it to good use.
I
flipped through the pages of Libri Lucis.
There were so many spells to choose from, among them were “Charm of Transformation” and “Waterwalking
Conjuration”. The requirements for the charms were equally mysterious –
they ranged from “eggs of a male toad”
to “toenails from youngest sibling”. Carefully,
my eyes scanned each page until one spell caught my eye:
Divination
of The Unrest
Use: To put to rest once and for all beings of
the dark.
Things
needed: Sunlight, Guardian Amulet
Expose the creature to sunlight for 60 seconds.
Repeat the following chant 3 times.
Hilah rinh shahih
Lich thians ah havinth
Perish thou soul with the light of heat
And return thee unrest to thy keep.
On the following page, the “Guardian Amulet” was
attached to the page. It was a piece of leather string with a piece of ivory
hanging in the middle. I had my safety spell, now I just needed to retrieve The
Witch’s items.
The following day, I was forced by my parents to
attend school after the board had reported my truancy but that was the least of
my worries at this point of time. Before class, I went to unload my books from
the locker and I was approached by Lydia who was wearing a floral mini dress
that accentuated her petite figure.
“Hey Jakey, why didn’t you come to school
yesterday?” she asked looking at me intently with her big blue eyes. This was
so strange, Lydia was actually talking to me - an antisocial nerd that likes
Pokemon and somehow got involved in the Dark Arts, and the amulet started to go
warm. I told Lydia I was sick and we walked together to the Biology Lab for our
next class.
Surprisingly, she offered me a seat next to her
in the lab. I gladly accepted the offer like a dog being thrown a large bone.
Today, for the class we were dissecting a frog but Lydia and I paid close to no
attention to the teacher as he explained. We were too busy chatting and
laughing with each other. It was the best time I have had with a girl in my
entire life.
When it came time to start cutting up the poor
amphibian, Lydia and I giggled and laughed while we poked the lifeless creature
with our scalpels “in the name of Science” – as Lydia put it. In the midst of
fooling around, I accidentally cut Lydia’s wrist with my scalpel. Albeit small,
the cut was deep and blood spewed everywhere on our table. Afterwards, the
teacher attended to her, covered the cut with a cloth and ushered her to the
school’s nurse.
Regret flooded me as I stood in front of the
bloody science lab table. I was too busy thinking about Lydia when the amulet
started heating up again. Snapping out of my remorse, the amulet’s hint finally
sank in. I had to collect the blood from my first love for The Witch. Whilst
cleaning up the gruesome mess, secretly, I grabbed a test tube and scooped up
some blood from the tabletop, secured it with a stopper and put it into my
pocket.
After school, I saw Lydia by the water cooler in
the hallway.
“Hey Lydia, are you alright? I’m so sorry. I
really didn’t mean to do that, it was a total acci…”
Right then and there, Lydia kissed me. Her soft
tender lips against mine brought me to a state of euphoria. I closed my eyes
and felt as if I was melting just by her soft and gentle touch. Lydia broke the
kiss, smiled and said, “I’m fine Jake. Now, follow me.” She dragged me to her
parked Porsche. In the car,
we blared loud upbeat music on the radio and had a ton of fun singing along.
After that little bonding session in
the car, Lydia had brought us to a hair salon. Countless of giggles later, both
of us decided a short bob cut would suit her best besides giving her a
refreshing new look. As she was getting her hair done, I sat and spectated in
amazement, her long luscious strands of blonde hair falling to the ground.
Lydia then got up to go and get her hair rinsed and that was when the amulet
heated up once again. This time I was ready, I pretended to drop a piece of
paper on the floor near the pile of Lydia’s hair. As I bent down to pick up the
paper, I scooped some hair onto the paper, folded it and put it back into my
pocket.
In the car ride back home, I
realized I couldn’t keep my secret from her any longer – I trusted her, now
more than ever, I broke the silence and explained to her about The Witch and my
plans to fulfill my promise with her the next day.
“No Jake, you can’t go alone. I’m
going with you, it’s much too dangerous for you to go alone! What if you get
hurt?” Lydia insisted and persisted she tagged along with me the next day.
Although reluctant, I agreed.
It was the day of the final
countdown between The Witch and I. Across the street from the old house, Lydia
and I stood in silence. In my bag, I had with me “Libri Lucis”, the test tube of blood, the lock of hair, my penknife
and a torchlight meanwhile on my
neck, I had with me my ivory amulet. Once we were both ready, we entered the
house.
Despite it being broad daylight
outside, the inside of the house was as I remembered it – cold, dark and dusty.
A sudden gust of wind came in and echoes of The Witch’s cackles travelled with
it causing the amulet to radiate. All at once, our torchlights died off, all
the doors in the house started slamming violently and, the spine-curling laugh
of The Witch roared through the walls of the house.
Everything in the house came alive
and before we knew it, The Witch was standing right in front of us. I gripped
Lydia’s hand tightly and the amulet on my chest heated up like an oven. In an unexpected
turn of events, Lydia’s skin grew scaly and her eyes turned green. Swiftly, she
wrapped her slender long snaky body around my neck tightly and I was completely
thrown off guard. The Witch approached both of us slowly, extended a skinny
wrinkly hand and threw her head back laughing wildly.
“Good job my pet. Now where are the
goods?” the hag demanded. In one swift move, Lydia – or rather the snake, buried
her fangs into my neck, cutting the rope of my amulet with the sides of her
fangs. I kneeled to the ground inn agony, clutching my neck with my palm
helplessly. The Witch lifted a finger pointed towards my knapsack and out flew
the journal into her grey-hued hands.
“Here my masssssster…” replied Lydia
in a tone resembling a serpent’s as she slithered up The Witch’s arm with the
amulet. The Witch pleased with her faithful assistant, threw a rat upward. The
serpent jumped up, caught the rat in her mouth and bit hard – rodent blood
spewed all over her mouth.
Lying on the floor, The Witch walked towards
me, bent down and explained, “You see little Jakey, I just used you to get what
I wanted from your great grandmother, one of the greatest witches of all time.
The nonsense about your first love was just bait and now you’ve fallen into my
trap.”
The
Witch raised a blade above her head with both hands towards my forehead. Just
in the nick of time, I rolled away – leaving the hag stuck to the rotting
floorboard with her knife. I ran into a little room where I saw a fireplace
lighted up. I trashed the place like a madman as I heard the loud footsteps of
The Witch and her cackles nearing the room. Somehow, I managed to find a can of
gasoline and poured it over everything. The fire spread hot and fast but I was
trapped for The Witch was at the entrance of the door. Just like in Physical
Education class, I braced myself, charged and tackled The Witch at her
abdominal area. “Thanks Mr. Joe, I owe you one,” I said under my breath,
panting from all the adrenaline.
The
Witch lay on the floor and ordered “her pet” to aid her in my capture. I rushed
to the sides of the large hallway where we were all situated and started
tugging down all the curtains letting sunlight enter and fill the room. The
Witch hissed in torment and shrieked as smoke exited her pores. The snake was
about to leap on me, fangs barred when out of the blue, a beam from the roof on
fire fell on her, crushing her.
“Please
Jake, help me!” pleaded Lydia, now back in human form. I shook my head at the
girl I loved, picked up the amulet and journal lying scattered on the floor and
headed towards the squirming witch. I
opened the journal and began chanting aloud in the burning building, on my final
repetition, The Witch could take it no more, she charged at me with every ounce
of energy she had left. “Hilah rinh shahih. Lich thians ah havinth” I punched her
hard in her stomach and pinned her down to the ground. “Perish thou
soul with the light of heat”
I raised the amulet high above my head. “And
return thee unrest to thy keep.” The ivory tusk plunged into The Witch’s
heart.
“NOOOOOOO!!!” she
cried. Within a second, she became ash. The house was burning down fast - I
grabbed the magical items and dashed out of the house without a second thought.
Opposite the street, I watched as The Witch’s house burned down in flames. As I
walked home, I realized, the amulet was trying to warn me of the dangers all
along. I entered the house bruised, cut up and covered in ash and debris, my
mother stood before me with a shocked face.
Nonchalantly, I walked up the stairs and said to
her, “Toughest. Pokemon battle. Ever.”
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This was a story I wrote last year for the Scholastic Story writing competition. But since I didn't win, I thought I'd ought to share it with all of you. I hope you were as entertained reading the story as I was entertained writing it!
- Eeyeng Lim
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This was a story I wrote last year for the Scholastic Story writing competition. But since I didn't win, I thought I'd ought to share it with all of you. I hope you were as entertained reading the story as I was entertained writing it!
- Eeyeng Lim
Monday, March 9, 2015
Have You No Shame
Have You No Shame?
17.11.14
Showered with compliments
Beautiful, cute, sexy, perfect
All the comments
And all you do is smile, that's how you react
Have you no shame?
Playing with a persons feelings
Juggling the thoughts running through their head
Scrambling the emotions in their heart
Bringing up their hopes
Only to know that it's impossible
Only to know that "this"
What you have, it's improbable
The empty void in yourself
You wanted to fill it with acceptance
That you've never had
That maybe.
Just maybe.
This was the perfect chance.
No,
It wasn't.
This isn't right
Now you're writing
After you've been up all night
Finally rationalizing
The feelings you've put in that deep dark hole
It's all artificial
Now you're digging and digging
Like a goddamn mole
Trying to salvage whatever sanity you have left
Only now the void is bigger,
Deeper and blacker
And it's embedded itself on the insides of your chest.
Filled with regret
Remorseful
All you do is apologize
To the poor soul you've just hurt
Tell them you're sorry
Tell them what you've finally realized
But now it's all too late
The vase is broken
The wires have snapped
Maybe you should have just said thank you
Stopped at that
You bit off more than you could chew
Both your feelings, trampled like a mat
Have you no shame?
Put down the cards
Throw away the dice
This is it, it's your final game
Saturday, February 28, 2015
Had I A Choice?
Had I A Choice?
The
wind was gentle but chilly. I shut my eyes, tilted my head up and the soft cool
breeze kissed my face and danced with the few strands of hair that escaped my
ponytail. My face was sun kissed – much like the other women here. Today we
were lucky for even the slightest gust of air. It’s the small things in life
we’ve come to appreciate after losing everything we once had. My dried up lips
curved up into a smile and then I returned to what I was doing – peeling
potatoes. I looked at my hands, which were once soft and smooth as a baby’s
bottom, now as rough and tough as a cactus in the desert. As I scraped the dirt
off the starchy vegetables placed in my hand, my mind wandered back to the days
when the good was great before we fell into the hands of fate.
“Jillian!
Your lunch is ready!” I bellowed for my beautiful daughter from the bottom of
the stairs.
Slowly, I returned to the dining room and giggled to myself. Why
you might ask? Well, she has yet to realize that I, her mother know she has
gotten herself into her first real relationship with a boy. “Ah young love,
sweet and innocent,” the thought circled in my head as I set up the dining
table. Not long after, Jillian came down from her room and sat herself across
from me. We had small chit-chat as we enjoyed servings of warm mashed potatoes
and gravy with a side of roasted spring vegetables. “Mmm, what is that? It
smells delicious!” exclaimed Sarah as she entered the house. Beaming with joy
and clearly hungry after work, Sarah waltzed into the dining room and planted a
small kiss on my forehead. I smiled, looked into her eyes and said, “Welcome
home, honey.” As per usual, my daughter began “choking” and “coughing” at her
food prior to seeing the public displays of affection by her mothers. Then all
three of us would chuckle at each another like schoolgirls during recess.
“WHAT
ARE YOU SMILING AT? GET BACK TO WORK YOU FILTHY HOMOSEXUAL!”
Snapping
out, I scowled at the officer in disgust and spit on the floor to show my
distaste. Sarah looked at me from across the field and eyed me not to make any
rash decisions. Pissed off but aware that I’ve put myself in a spot, I took in
a long deep breath and apologized to the officer.
“Yes sir! I am a dirty lesbian and have no right to
smile.”
With a few long
strides, he marched up to me and landed one tight slap across my face. An
intense burning sensation engulfed my cheek. Violently, the officer cupped my
jaw, brought his face close to mine and said “Trying to be funny? You’ll see
the end of it bitch. Just you wait”.
Then, he turned around
and walked away. I regained my composure. Ironically, the pain that stabbed me internally
in my chest overwhelmed the fiery pain I felt on my face because I knew no
matter how much of a monster that man was – he was free. Maybe some day my
family and I would finally be free.
6 months. 6 months since have we been hauled,
thrown and locked up in this dreaded concentration camp. The Government and The
Almighty Heavenly Institute had come to agreement that all homosexuals and
their families are part of a poisonous species and belong in hell where we
should burn until we gained some degree of sanity. Well, I still remember the
day as clear as water when our almost perfect world came crashing down upon us.
Sarah, Jillian and I hid in the small crawlspace under the floorboards of our
house. We had heard loud banging noises and stomps of heavy leather boots
travelling above us. Our hearts were pounding fast and tears streamed down our
faces. Watching my wife and daughter cry, being helpless and worried was like a
wrench to your soul. Then, all the sounds halted. We could only hear the rhythm
of our own breath. Inhaling. Exhaling. Maybe we were one of the lucky ones.
BANG! BANG! BANG!
BANG! BANG! BANG!
Gunshots
were fired from above mere centimetres from my family and I. The floorboards
were torn open my large crowbars and we could see policemen from above looking
down at us. It is ironic really, the men we paid with our hard earned money and
taxes, and depended on to keep us safe were the exact people who hovered above
us to tear us away from safety. “Got them,” smirked the lad in a buttoned up
grey-coloured uniform garnished with medals and pins of silver and gold.
“RIIIIIIIIING!”
went the bell. We moved to the cafeteria for dinner. A spoonful of stale rice
and soup that smelt like urine were provided to every homosexual family.
Jillian, Sarah and I sat in a small circle on the floor – each of us chewing on
our food, not speaking a word and staring at a spot on the floor with lifeless
eyes, stoned. I looked at my spouse; her face was as grey as death and her hair,
which used to be as luscious as woven silk was now no more. Left with nothing
but skin and bones, the only thing I saw in my family and myself now, were
walking and breathing corpses.
An officer in black came in. Boots heavy on the
floor, the sounds drumming against my eardrum.
Pointing at families scattered round the canteen, the officer counted, “One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine and…”
His eyes travelled the room and for a second, we made eye contact.
“Ten.”
Pointing at families scattered round the canteen, the officer counted, “One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine and…”
His eyes travelled the room and for a second, we made eye contact.
“Ten.”
Obediently
like dogs on a chain, the ten families grouped together and walked towards a
hallway. At the end of it, were two doors. The mothers and the children were
separated. Mothers went into the door on the left, and children went into the
door on the right. As I entered the cold dark room, my hand was locked with
Sara’s. We stood in a line facing a black tinted glass of some sort. Confused,
the women in the room looked around. Were we supposed to do something here?
Where are they taking our children?
A
few minutes later, a dim light turned on behind the glass and the black tinted
glass was now fully transparent. What we saw on the other side knotted our
stomachs and shattered our feeble hearts. Our very own children were standing
stark naked in a place that looked very much like a bathroom. Their clothes
were placed on the hooks and we could see an officer telling them some sort of
instruction or news. Upon hearing the news, some children smiled slightly,
others remained expressionless and dazed. The mothers in the room were left
puzzled. After that, the officer exited the room and a siren began to sound.
The children looked up at the showerheads above them in awe when water poured
down upon them for the first time in 6 months. They were overjoyed. Some were
already reaching out to the bars of soap to clean themselves. Sarah and I
looked at each other not knowing what to think.
Then,
the water stopped. The children were now lost and confused. What was going on?
A few seconds later, white fumes escaped from the shower heads. Terror formed
on the children’s faces as mass hysteria unfolded. They began coughing,
huddling up in corners, crying and hugging. Some children fell to their knees
unable to catch their breath. No, this was no shower. It was a gas chamber. All
the women in the room went absolutely berserks.
They wailed and cried and scratched their nails and thumped their fists
on the glass watching helplessly as their children, a merely a few feet away
from them, fell to the wet floor – fell to their untimely death.
I
stood there as my wife collapsed next to me in sorrow. My eyes began to fill
with salty tears that soon trickled down my face. That was it. I had lost it. I
had lost my world. Emptiness engulfed my soul as I experienced my daughter and
at least 15 innocent children perish right in front of my eyes. The lights in
the gas chamber turned off and the lights in our room turned on. As if stabbing
our eyes, the fluorescent lights above us showed us that we stood in a huge
room. About 30 to 50 male officers were in the room and we were all instructed
to stand up. The men pulled us wives away from each other, forcefully
separating our weakly linked bodies.
Among
9 other women, I stood staring at my spouse being dragged to the other end of
the room by a group of men. Our hands were cuffed to the bar behind us like
helpless animals. As if seeing my daughter die was not enough, I watched as men
in uniform viciously and without a conscience, rape my wife. The room was now
filled with screams of torment, torture and tears. Had these men no heart? Had
these men no soul? I wailed for them to stop but the only thing that returned
was more and more screams of lesbian women being stolen of their lives.
After
the men had finished with the women, they put on the rest of their clothes and
left the room. Smiling. Disgusting pigs. I hoped they burn in hell. All but 10
of them left. The 10 that remained moved to the side of the room and armed
themselves each with an AK-47. One officer and one gun allocated for each of us
women standing handcuffed to the bar. I faced my prosecutor with bloodshot eyes
and a face filled with disgust. Across me stood the man that had slapped me
this morning in the field. “Hello little lesbian, we meet again,” worded his
filthy and disgusting mouth. “Did you like what I did to your wife over there?
That’s what women are for – to please men. That’s why you’re an abomination.
But don’t worry, I’m a kind man. I’ll make this fast and painless,” the officer
said with an evil smirk across his face.
*Chak
chak* sounded the gun.
Finger
on the trigger, he aimed the gun at my face.
If I could change everything, had I a choice?
I couldn’t love men even if I tried.
I could only love what was forbidden to most.
I could only love the same sex.
Had I a choice to be born this way?
Had I a choice to be born into death?
Had I a choice?
No, I had none.
I had no choice.
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